As expected today has been very difficult. Saying goodbye to my colleague going through the whole day with them knowing that I will not see them on Sunday, hearing one of them cry while the others have very low confidence of finding another job, it is torture. The whole time as if I can't breath, as if there something heavy in the chest. I wanted to cry myself.

My superior talked to me, he is telling me how they know its difficult for the ones remaining as well as the ones leaving. Hearing from him how he decided that I should stay, that I am important to the company. I felt like telling him to just shut up. "I know what's going on, we are the pawn, we are the sacrificial lamb among others." He don't have to ease my worries, it is business and as much as I hate to admit I do understand, but it still sucks!

And the most difficult part is seeing one of us who were left with a smug face when he look at the ones who are about to leave. I wanted to give him a piece of my mind but was hindered by the bigger picture that it is not worth it, he is not worth my time at all unlike for my colleague, my friends and next to family people here in Dubai. He is just one of those people who are like trash.

I will never forget Liz, Ai, Con, Jan & especially Babs whom I've spent 2.5 years at work and shared carlift for 1.5 years. All of them who are very sweet and caring, loud yet you know are sincere, comical and funny. They are my peeps they made me laugh most of the time. Listen and considers your advises sometimes annoying yet can't help but love them. They are the people I've been working with for the last 2.5 years, they are the people that I never got into an argument with, they are my my former colleague but they are my friends. Going to work on Sunday will never be the same ever again..