Obviously since the last time I blog so many thing happened. Two of my friends got married, precisely they got married. I can't seem to find my bestfriend, as he is busy looking for a job or with thier new business prospect, either way I'm not sure which is which. I'm going crazy with the people I'm managing at work. My first love is yet again a vague picture in my story and I quit may job las week.

Okay I'll start with quitting my job as this is the most exhausting....The last two months has been very difficult at work. We don't know where we stand. I felt like a slave of our other office. I've been with this company 3 years and now since the management restucture I felt I fell on the bottom of the chain, just waiting for the other staff, which is on the country to give me something to do. I'm not comfortable with it because I've work my butt off to get where I am and just because of this recession everything fell apart.

Everyday I have a feeling of any moment I'll be sack or my boss will repremend me for something I did wrong. Every single day for the last two months I'm feeling like this and it is exhausting. I don't want to live or work like this. There was also a time that we had a long holiday and everyday in that holiday I'd do 2-3 hours of work, receive a call from anyone, attend to that call and react to it....and my mind is shouting..."for goodness sake it's HOLIDAY, let me enjoy my holiday at peace." Then last week I got tired of it, I realised I don't want to spend every single day of my work life pampering other people who is more capable, has more advantage and receives bigger...so much bigger salary than I am. I call them blood suckers because the suck all the blood, energy and patience out of you just for their petty needs which they can do themselves. They are so much older that me and yet they want to be pampered like a baby. Blood suckers!!! hate them! really!

Anyway aside from those blood suckers our internal management also sucks. They knew nothing about planning and structure as well as consideration. They are people who knows nothing but to make money and feed this growing corporate "brand" business. I used to love and respect my company, we help people get job and give our service with a personal touch to it, but not it is all about feeding the need of this corporation, feeding the ego, the promises and expectations of the board. I hate the ongoing politics in our company, that is why when I resigned last week I felt freedom. I don't need to think or thier expectation of me, don;t have to worry about the people the placed here, don't need to think of ways how to satisfy the blood suckers, because in the next 3 weeks, after I finish my notice I'm free of this worries and it feels good.